MistressCthulhu

And its raining in January Listening to the sounds Feeling the cool air Smelling the breeze Feeling this energy Flow across my soul When the air blows I think of you Caressing my skin Kissing me with That rain tasting kiss Your love sprinkles Across my skin Feeling like rain January rain reminds me Of being covered in your love

There is music in you That sings to my soul There is fire in you That burns in my heart There is water in you that pours across my heart There is air in you That fills my sails There is earth in you That i can dig down deep in There is passion in you That fills me with love There is love in you That meets me on every level There is a soul in you That i cherish eternally

You are the sunshine in the night of my mind You are the magick that l seek to harness You are the map of to maze of my soul You are the fire that burns in my heart You are the cool waters of my deepest depths You are the air that blows my creativity You are the earth i buried my past in You are the God i worship with my soul You are the king i serve with my life You are the Lord i pledge myself to You are the lover i have always desired You are the partner i have always needed You are the best thing thats ever happened to me You are the only one I'll ever love

Sing it from the mountain tops That our love will never stop Dance along the oceans shore Our love will always be for sure The pain of the past fades when I'm in your arms I can give up all the rage within that swarms My love for you will never end I know that on you i can depend The love and power you have given me Will ensure that i will never flee Your strength is the balm on my soul As long as i have you i will never be in the Mental illness hole Your love has saved me from collapse Into the strange world within i will never lapse Our passion burns my fear away And keeps all my demons at bay You are the one i have searched my whole life f

I loved you with my whole heart And its broken and bleeding now And you cant fix the destruction you caused You can apologize all you need Im walking away from the blood Away From the mess you left behind When i gave you my heart You said it was cherished. Now i know you lied And now i know i was a diversion Now i stand here blood dripping from my fingers The blood is from when you crushed my heart Tore me apart Tore me to tatters and now i cry alone And now you want to say you're sorry Well it doesnt fix my heart It doesnt fix the trust that is shattered You're apologies mean nothing to the blood of my heart oozing from my wound It doesn't

If you want to throw my heart away I don't care anymore If I'm not real enough for you Then say goodbye I stand here strong and angry Turning the pain into rage Forgetting my heart Forgetting the soul crushed sobbing at 3 am Pissed off at the loss of hope Fighting the fire inside Guttural wailing ceased Fighting for my soul Turning it into cold My heart has broken finally Tape and glue snapped Watching it burn in the fires of my pain Fire into cold Winters blowing empty Across the hollow plains Snow upon my soul Crying for a cease to pain Letting it be again Good bye to trying Goodbye to love Time to trust myself and be alone Remember to take

I hear you calling my name Goddess of the shore creeping by Whispering the secret needs of my heart Lapping at my feet Guiding my consciousness to the life my soul cries for Keeping me strong against the tide of disappointment that he leaves behind The pain in my heart now Salty water burning my eyes The coldness of the ocean water Doesn't compare to what it could be if i dove any deeper I thank him for helping my heart heal wishing them the best Watching as they swim away into the deepest trenches As i run away from the drama riptide pulling me back I swim as hard and i can but I'm wanting to give in when suddenly i feel the Goddess of the S

Oh goddess Hecate Feel my rage Feel my disgust Feel my pain Feel my horror Feel my energy Send me the power Oh Goddess Bast Feel my heart Feel my sorrow Feel my intensity Feel my longing Feel my desire Send me what i need Oh my goddesses I keep your rites I love your energy I do the sacred dance I am your hand in the world I work your magick I am your intention Send me your guidance Oh goddesses of old You are powerful still You are eternal pillars You are endlessly a war You still fight for us You are powerful beyond measure I am honored to be your priestess

Another day without the 4 of you in it 2 months gone, 3 years in the grave, 4 years gone, 11 years gone but it feels like none of you ever existed in my day to day life I cant remember how any of you tasted or what your laughs sounded like And for the life of me i wonder why i let the first one beat me so low Did i ever really want her? Did she ever really care about me? Why did we get married? I can't remember the emotion that led me to making that commitment Once we were alone i was hated and traumatized by her. And i took the pain she inflicted and it filled me and it broke me So i pushed that pain onto the second one And now i hate mys